kamasutra26's Blog

My father in heaven,
it is you that I alone address,
take away my hearts worry,
do away with this earthly stress.
Give me, I mean, please allow,
me to have my daily bread,
take away any bad poison,
let me see rawness with traces of red.
Lead me through with high spirits,
and pass along my high in you,
do away with any bad thoughts early,
and give me strength when it is due.
Please forgive me of my wrongs,
as I will forgive those against me,
displace the vengeance I'd feel,
and replace it with love and glory.
Bless all of your children,
and even those as they stumble,
work inside those who know you,
and those who don't, make humble.
Distract me from what is evil,
it is you Lord that I will to follow.
Lead me away from earths temptation,
see me through to see tomorrow.
Thank you for these very words,
In your son Jesus' name I pray,
and by your mercy and grace,
at your will, I begin my day.
Amen.

SDPope

 I did not notice the change,
as it was before me.
Although, the concept and its meaning are nothing strange,
I have come to terms with things as they are damn near forced to be.
I am not ready for this change.
Just when I thought,
and I realize that, that was where I should have known,
How soon I had forgot,
The things of this world, are not mine to own,
What now have I got,
But memories and another lesson,
which I’m hoping I wont need in my own defense,
cause things are not as they were back then,
so right now it may look like things don’t make sense,
Until things change again.

SDPope

 Simple

Tonight I fight with my heart.
It longs to be in emotional bliss.
Tonight I have set my needs apart.
I am all, and nothing more.
Tomorrow, is never for sure.
So today, I carry on.
Neither weak, nor strong.

SDPope

Acid Tongue X-press how you must feel.

Allowing words rolled off you to heal.

Don't stop now when you think you are done

let the feeling take you where there is none.

You want to say more than likable

but continue to let words get you into trouble.

Say what your mind has been holding

empty the space your anger has been molding.

More words of hurt will refill it

just keep on feeling what you will permit.

Speak, and don't hold back anymore

go on now your acid words have the floor.

Does it feel better when you speak

allowing the receiver to become weak?

So silence can not control this event

when every word said was truly meant.

Now the words have become lost

Our friendship of many years is all it cost.

SDPope

 The Inner Feeling 

I can say that from a young age I can recall there always being a sense of right and wrong. I mean without having to be told. I won't say whether that is a result from our amygdala's inside of our brains, controlling our emotional state of being, or whether that it was because of a sense of their being a higher power. All I know is that there was something there. I believe everyone has these inner feelings. 

That is why I don't understand why so many things are still going on in our world today. I am not referring to just war, or murder. I am referring to the smaller things in life that we have to deal with everyday and with the ones we love the most. Like, I don't understand why, if a person that knows that their actions are going to effect the next person in a negative way, why they still will do so. But the killer is the fact that most people will try and defend themselves, or try and justify it with an excuse. For me that just makes matters even worse, because I have yet to hear a good enough excuse that will make everything seem okay. It just seems that there is always another option, other than the choice to cause negative reactions in people. 

Okay, I understand that we can not all be pleased. That is a given. Maybe I should be more specific.I am referring to people, (and I am not innocent, but I believe that I have learned and have come to some understandings ), that cheat, beat up on weaker people, lie intentionally, or are simply in denial about the way the world is progressing. It literally saddens me to accept it as facts. But I must, and I do. I can not go on in denial. The reason why I am unable to deny these cold facts is because of this inner feeling, that does not, will not, and have not gone away. 

There has been a plan for everyone.

Just look at thefacts........They have been here all along. 

Nomad

I said it then and I say it now,
this world was never meant for, and is not for me.
I can not fall to the occasion, nor pretend to know how,
while I am here in this life, and succeed to be happy.
This is not a place for dreams,
there is no rest while among the restless wondering.
I do not know what is as it seems,
when these things I do not dream are not my things.

SDPope

Satan's best trick is making the world believe that he doesn't exist.

Right and wrong should not be determined by the ruling majority! Science and its scientific method is today a ruling system for the societies. Although science and the scientific method can be applied in many areas,  including religion, it does not include any analysis for considering right and wrong. Through a scientific approach, every known issue in life can be looked at and rationalized. Anything that can not be explained with proof is labeled a theory. Society today is not ruled by theory, but rather it is governed by science. 

Earth is Satan's playground.

SDPope

To Be Continued.......

I can not understand who or what, or so much as why,

every last soul on earth was created to suffer and then die.

Not one single life will get to believe in unconditional goodness,

for no man alive has ever bared witness or experienced this.

Pray, and say with our mouths that our faith is strong,

but to the seeing eye, we believe more in what is wrong.

We prepare for a future and we set our stakes so far ahead,

denying the living, ignoring the battered, and forgetting the dead.

to be continued...........(interrupted)

SDPope

So, my friend tells me " have you seen The Arrivals?", which at the time I responded "no". I'm like "whats that?". He goes on to tell me how there's about 60 different episodes on  youtube about the antichrist and about how the world is today.

www.youtube.com/watch

So it is pretty interesting....but I don't know. I wonder how much is entertainment in itself and how much do they really expect the watcher to take seriously. I mean, they seem pretty serious.

SDPope

It is perfectly monstrous the way people go about, nowadays, saying things against one behind one's back that are absolutely and entirely true.

I Am

I am here, which is there, and here, yet no where at all....

To be an entity for as short a period as light can travel there.

I am heard as fast as a message can reach the other phone.....

to be ignored without consideration or the slightest impulse to care.

I am.....I am.....I am.....I am.....what ever I do at last.....

To have been tossed like a rag doll in life to and then fro.

I am a mold of what never seemed to matter in my past

a product of invisible forces guiding me which way to go.

I am..........no more me than I was the last time I was.....

So when the next person asks me I will tell them to wait.

I am only here to see what being capable really does.

SDPope

Is My Breath

I miss love so much,

I miss it as if I have lost my eyes,

and I am going numb to touch,

while withering away with my sighs,

is my breathe!

I am without a hope,

as if I seen what will be,

no longer managing to cope,

and slowly slipping from me,

is my breath!

I will not forgive again,

and my skin will stay cold,

and nothing will ever end,

with my last words when told,

is my breath!

I will sit in my bare skin,

as if I wear memory for dress,

feeling love as it had once been,

and with life that I live even less,

is my breath!

So death awaits near,

and the door is open always,

and i sit in skin without fear,

giving at last with my final days,

is my last breath!

SDPope

I am not from the desert originally. I am from a state where it snows and rains and then theirs autumn and spring and fall.....you know the normal seasons. But here, in the desert it is hot most of the time. It kind of makes getting into the Christmas spirit a little difficult. I mean, when I think of Christmas I picture snow, winter coats, a fire place, hot chocolate, etc......Christmas lights, decorations, holiday music etc......I could look outside before the month of December and know that Christmas was near. Not here. People are still wearing shorts, spaghetti straps, turning the air conditions on. Seems like Santa gets no play out here. SDPope
 

Alone in a world now,

feeling like nothing matters.

Doing what the heart will allow.

Normally nothing does occur.

There has to be a place.

This was where it all died.

Can any body show any grace?

Believing that all have tried.

Walking through the days.

Knowing that none will relate.

Stuck in familiar ways.

Realizing it's just to late.

SDPope

The longer I live,

the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more

important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances,

than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.

It is more important than looks,

giftedness or skill. It will make or

brake a company….a church….a home. The remarkable thing is you have

a choice every day regarding the attitude you will embrace for that day.

We can not change yesturday…..we can not change the fact that people will

act a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we

can do is play on the one cord we have, and that is our attitude. I am

convinced that life is 10 % what happens to me and 90 % how

I react to it. And so it is with you. You are in charge of your attitude.

SDPope

kamasutra26

Life,
What is it to you?
Is it any and everything we do?
Is it a test we take, with no retakes?
Or is it a gamble with the highest stakes?
Will we know who's life matters?
Is it every life that builds latters?
Is it ours to take it or leave it?
Or is it a fate that we deal with?
What is life anyway?
Is it our childrens time to play?
Should we have riches to leave them behind?
Or are our treasures found in the mind?
Is it a summary of the time here?
Or is it persuing without a fear?
Is it solitude with self knowledge?
Or is it the credits we build in college?
What is life to you, now?
Is it what you want and will allow?

SDPope

So, I have heard the saying that no one ever said that life was going to be easy, but no one ever said that it was going to be hard, either. In my days as a kid I can remember wanting to be an adult so that things in life would become easier. I had this idea that with age and experience, the challenges that I would face would become easier and would occur with less frequency. I couldn't have been more wrong about anything. At the age of 26, almost 27, I have been challenged in ways I never would have imagined. The thing about it is, that I can not say that I met the challanges and overcame them, or if they over came me.

It seems like life has become a parasite that feeds on my downfalls, and I am the host that harbors this pest. Together we survive in this unimportant existancy only to fill the void of a need, to be needed.